| i didn't move to texas.
i still love Jesus.
i still don't have a car.
i met another girl.
i don't know what else to say.
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| i never ever ever ever expected this.
i did horribly in school last semester.
i passed a class.
i'm just having a real hard time figuring out exactly what i should do.
i'm moving to dallas. augus 12th.
so yes, that means i will be seeing you texans again real soon. which is very exciting to me :)
these are the things i know:
1. my parents- they love me and care for me. they have good intentions. i don't think, however, that they are treating me like their oldest son who is turning 20 soon. i feel like a 15 year old whenever i am home. they also seem to pressure me very much in a way that makes me feel like i'm making decisions only to keep them off of me, as opposed to making them because i simply want to.
2. music- i love playing music so much. i know y'all may have always known me too, but i never got too into music until the end of highschool. i feel like i need to play all of the time. whenever i play i feel comfortable- i feel like i'm somewhere i'm supposed to be. there have been times where everything has gone worng, but i still feel peace. i feel God's hand in it and that i should continue to pursue it.
3. dallas- my parents will be far away. i can become a grown up. i can get a job and pay my own rent and vote and play shows. lots of shows. i'm going to take music VERY seriously.
i'm gonna give it a year. and then see what i should do next.
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| we gots new live recordings up :)
go take a listen:
or myspace.com/iamthealarm
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| you can't lie
you can't say that i'm the only one like this
it'd be more worth your time
to appreciate my best for what it really is
when i give you my best, my heart comes with it
and you're hurting me if it means nothing to you.
i built this house and it's all mine to keep
but i always let you in
i always let you in
and you always break something
why do you blame when i'm angry?
it's not my fault it hurts
i have a heart and i use it
it's not pride if i'm willing to give it away |
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